Pillow's Lounge

Well...

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 18:02:00 GMT

As usual when I'm upset, here I am.

This time it's less sadness and more anger. I cannot believe this course of events.
For the past 5 days I've been practically quivering with anger. It takes a lot to get me appreciably mad...

What am I supposed to do with this? There's only one way I can see to interpret it...

I know that none of this makes sense without details. I don't really feel like laying those out...I just need to release some of this frustration so that I might stop this incessant shaking.

As a sidenote, who the fuck is still reading this? I haven't updated it in forever, and lately all I've written is depressing stuff. Maybe Easyjournal just fills that graph with random stuff so that people don't kill themselves.

I wish things weren't so damn frustrating and confusing.

Well...

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 14:22:00 GMT

I always come back here on bad days.
Somehow it's therapeutic to me when I'm down, or maybe it just kills the time.

In the even that you have any moment to step back from yourself when you're upset and observe yourself objectively, seize that moment. I find that those moments are the best rungs of the best ladder that can allow us to climb free.

There are things in life that are important, and there are things that we want to be important.
The funny thing about the human brain is it can invent things, and place weight on these things for any reason, or no reason at all.

From an evolutionary standpoint...why?
If you follow evolution, our main purposes are to survive, and reproduce.
Why, then, do we laugh? Why, then, do so many of us get so depressed about things that ultimately do not affect our ability to survive or reproduce that people commit suicide?

I do believe in evolution. It makes sense. However, there is some higher power, I am convinced. Our time on earth is more meaningful than a result of evolution and one more generation of our species. Life is an experience, and that's the only way I can justify the human brain's current nature.

Now, on to my situation.
I'm in a state of reeling disbelief.
Not because anything that has happened recently is really unbelievable, but just because my mind doesn't want it to be believable.

The other thing that's funny about the brain is perception.
So much emotional charge can be tied to something not actually by any factor of the item itself, but perception.
Take, for example, marijuana, and drugs in general. Yes, there are many drugs that can seriously mess up your life. Alcohol is one of them. Alcohol is legal, and people hardly fault people for getting drunk. Marijuana is illegal, and it's totally taboo in much of society to be high. Why? Is alcohol worse than marijuana? I think for the government to make marijuana illegal, alcohol being illegal should have come first. In that vein, someone from amsterdam would definitely not perceive marijuana the same as someone raised where it's illegal.

I'm learning more and more how strongly childhood affects our behavior and perceptions. I'm laid back and easygoing probably because I was raised that way. I feel sorry for people who are high strung, but I probably shouldn't, because that's probably how they have always been and it's probably normal to them, just like relaxed is normal for me. They probably look at me and think that I'm living less because I'm not GO GO GO all the time.

Life is funny. It's an experience, to be sure, but sometimes I wish there was more of a guideline. Mistakes lead to correct choices, in any intelligent being with the desire to succeed...
I just don't want to make any more mistakes...

Life

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 22:29:00 GMT

Man.
It's funny how fast some things change.
You think everything's finally starting to go right for you. The universe has finally said "you've proven yourself worthy, please join us in happiness." Then Bam, typical human stupidity comes and fucks it all up.

I'm not living the perfect life. Far from it. My job sucks, I don't have my degree yet, my house is alright, but nowhere near what I want. I don't drive a nice car. I don't have a lot of free time, and I"m not in the shape I want to be in.

However, I did have one thing exactly how I always dreamed it would be. It was perfect. The first part of my dream life, already realized. I could hardly believe it! Who knew that I would get so lucky, so young.

I guess my optimism was well founded, because one mistake, repeated 4 times, admittedly stupid and inconsiderate, lacking forethought, has cost me the one thing in my life that had finally fit the socket perfectly. Leave it to me to be a jackass when it counts. Leave it to me to be given a gift only to emotionally shoot myself in the head.

You know, I'm not sure if anyone even reads this anymore. I'm surprised if anyone does. I haven't posted here in forever. If there is anyone...I apologize for only writing here when I'm depressed. When I'm happy, I've got better things to do.

To make a long long story very very short, I fucked up, she saw that I fucked up and now the anchor of my life is in her hands. Currently, it's walking away from me, back proudly turned and head pointed straight ahead.

Here's to hoping she looks back...cheers.

Stunning

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 22:04:00 GMT

It's truly stunning how, even while living a life of prosperity,
the constricting feeling of being stuck at the bottom of a pit
trying to claw your way out can close in upon you.

Why is it that every time I feel myself getting a handhold on life,
things start to slide out from under me.

Hurray for super emo depressed journal entries...
I should stop doing that.

Crazy

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 21:57:00 GMT

Life is crazy.
Work is crazy.
People are crazy.

All around...I don't even know what's going on anymore.
I'm ok with myself right now but I can't help feeling...lost.

Working at the moving company has been a good experience.
I'm getting in better shape, quite a bit actually.
I'm strong as hell now. However,
working 6 days a week and not being able to plan ANYTHING...
sucks.

I've got an interview for another job tomorrow morning.
That's cool as hell...cus that job would be less hours,
a more stable schedule, and like twice the pay.
I sure hope I get hired...although I'll feel bad about leaving
the whale and all the cool people there so soon. Oh well.
It'd be worth it in the end...by a good margin.

Due tot he fact that I'm working at the whale, my social life-
outside the whale that is- has taken a severe turn for the worse.
That's never good. However...life has been a very steady color of grey.
No real improvements and no real declines. That's good, in its own way.
I'd like my life to return to the blinding white glory it used to be...
But you can't have it all all the time. Life's a bitch like that.

I'm still struggling with old problems as well as dealing with new ones.
I guess that, also, is life. Nothing is ever REALLY static or permanent.

I really have no idea what I'm doing with my life right now,
and I don't know what I'm gonna do about...anything right now.
Basically, I hope I get this new job, make a lot of money,
Go get my degree, and by that time, hopefully I'll have more figured out.

As a sidenote...I find it hard to believe that my journal recieved 7 views today.
Either those numbers are completely made up to make me feel ok with myself...
Or somehow some people just habitually can't stop checking this thing.
Oh well.
--Hunter

Too much time to think

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 22:27:00 GMT

So, I definitely have too much time to think, and also too many things to think about.
I make myself sick to the stomach sometimes. My life has come to a screeching halt, in terms of how things have been progressing. In tems of how much I'm enjoying everything...things are gradually starting to improve, but not fast enough for my liking. I've tried to stay busy, but there's no way to keep yourself from thinking when you have a mind as messed up as mine.

Every single avenue I wanted my life to travel down, and I thought I was on track for, has closed. Major avenue, anyway. I still don't have any STDs and I'm still alive, all that stuff, but everything I was trying to count on is gone. Frankly, on average, I feel like shit. I'm happy occasionally, but most of the time, I'm forcing myself to not be down. It's exhausting, and I don't know what I can do about it.

I love how nowadays the only reason I ever come and write anything in easyjournal is when I'm pissed off or upset about something. Must make for either a really good or really bad read. I feel like I'm being a whiney bitch, but hey, whatever, that's how it's gonna be, I guess.

I'm glad to know that I'm still important...so important I'm completely put off to the bottom of the list. Makes a guy feel great. I really love that feeling.

Also a great time to find out that depression runs in my family. Really exactly what I want to hear =)

Been a While eh?

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 21:03:00 GMT

So I haven't been to this site in a couple of months.
Yet somehow today I had 12 pageviews...nice.
Guess there are still people out there who are wondering what's goin on in my life?
According to this...not a lot.
In truth, not really a lot, either.
Pretty much just school and studying and eating and sleeping these days.
For anyone who doesn't already know this...
21 credit hours is TOO MUCH.
I guess there's a reason 19 is the limit...lol
Anyway, I'm at a weird point in my life, aside from school being a bitch.
I feel like I'm standing in the center of this void, looking around at the different paths I could take to get out...
And I just can't seem to pick one and put one foot in front o the other.
I must say it's an odd feeling. I don't really like it but it only kicks in when I'm lonely.
I'm realizing something about myself, more and more. I really thrive on people.
Of course I'm not trying to say I'm a parasite. I just...like human interaction.
The other night I went into my room after my roomates went to sleep and I was not tired at all.
I sat down at my computer, checked my email. Only had spam, checked aim, nobody was on...
I felt stranded. I mean, I know how to entertain myself and It's not like I'm depressed if I don't have anybody to talk to. It just sucked that night to feel so alone.
I don't know, maybe someone's feeding me emo pills, but that night felt crushingly alone.

Sitting here writing this i'm realizing that could also have to do with school...
Fucking schoolwork. Lame.
Three cheers for rambling. Anyway, if you guys still care about me enough to read this, gimme a call =)
Doubt anyone who still checks this doesn't know my number. I'd love to hear from ya. you should all know: I love.

Mr. Midon

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 22:22:00 GMT

I'd really like to thank Raul Midon.
For writing these songs.
State of Mind
Keep on Hoping.
And I'd like to thank Vinnie for introducing the music to me

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 21:33:00 GMT

Counting my footsteps...
Always counting my goddamn footsteps.

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 15:22:00 GMT

Facades are so damn difficult.
And the thing is they don't really help anything, either.
But what the hell, seems like the right thing to do.
phuckiney

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 21:26:00 GMT

I'm perty confused right now...
I don't think I'll be going by acumen for a while.
Wisdom isn't so accurate...
I need to find a good word for confusion.
--whatever a good word for confusion is

Game Over

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 01:08:00 GMT

So i guess 9-21-05 is pretty much gonna be my worst memory so far in my life.
Good game...
Uninstall.

another great one

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 02:13:00 GMT

So, for the umpteenth time lately
I find myself unable to sleep, lonely, and upset.
This is very unusual.
Maybe I'm not at my best at 2 in the morning when I can't sleep.
Or maybe I'm just angry
But for some reason I feel like crap tonight.
I think...four things in a row pissed me off
ALWAYS good. not one or two, four.
And then one that just hurt.
You know, those things are probably speaking more than my sleeplessness though.
2 am isn't that bad. I'll probably fall asleep later.
But those five things really upset me.
In fact, they're probably the REASON i can't sleep.
I've never been able to sleep if I had a lot on my mind.
Especially if i have nobody left to vent to...
Anyway, I really don't feel like myself now.
It's not usually in my nature to be upset like this.
Some things just cut to the core of me....

I love you mari, with all my heart.
I miss you more than you'll ever know.
And I can't wait for you to get back so I can give you a giant hug.
But apparently all those things are one sided today.

This is a good one

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 00:54:00 GMT

Hates every single fucking person in this world...
notice the dot dot dot.
wonderful feeling down in my belly
where the butterflies usually are when I think of you.
so much for knowing there was someone in the world who cared...
someone in the world who loves me...apparently not at the moment
I guess it's gonna be a bad night

Thirteenth

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 04:05:00 GMT

So...I haven't updated this in quite a while.
I wonder if anybody even reads it anymore.

Today is the thirteenth. One year and ten months i've been with her...
I don't get to share the day with her, which makes me sad.
I miss that girl more than anything. I wish I could teleport to her or something...
Coming back to the states after being with her in korea was ok, but man I wish she had come with.
Thirteenths just aren't the same with a hug and a kiss and some roses in my hand.
It makes me sad thinking about that...cus it became such a happy ritual for me.
It is also sad that I don't get to talk to her every day anymore. We went over a year talking every single day...
And then the cruise happened. No communication available.
Anyway, The thirteenth just started for me and is winding down for her.
Wherever she is, whatever she's doing, I hope she's having fun.
I'm sitting here, at 4 am on our 1 year 10 month, with nothing to do. The rest of the day will probably be taken up with a lot of sleeping and then looking through my aim buddy list trying to find someone to talk to or something to do. I hope she's having a great time like i would try to give her if I could be there.
I think she said she was gonna hang out with daeyang today...or maybe it was tomorrow.
That's kind of Ironic, I gotta say. interesting
This entry is kind of becoming dribble and babble. That's sad
I'm not joking though. I really miss her.
When I was leaving, I wanted so badly to hug her and pick her up and hold her and never let go.
I wanted to kiss her like it was the first time in a thousand years.
Speaking of the first time in a thousand years, it almost feels like i haven't kissed her in that long.
I wanted to love her and feel loved.
But I couldn't
And I didn't
You have no idea how lonely it feels to travel for 40 hours after that happens to you.
It SUCKS.
And now I am sitting here at four am missing her still.
I love that girl so much

Birthday

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 00:48:00 GMT

So today was my birthday
Or I guess yesterday was since its 12 43 right now
the day was ok at school
The after part actually turned out to suck.
Dinner was good
Then me, mari, and daniel ended up at red rum by ourselves,
waiting for other people to get there, maybe 10 or 15 minutes later we thought.
Nope, they definitely showed up a little over an hour and a half later. 2/3 of my party wasn't at my party. great
lots of fun times folks
wish it had turned out differently.
--Hunter

halloween

Sun, 31 Oct 2004 22:11:00 GMT

I'm tired of beeing so goddamn sensitive.
Sometimes I wish I was an insensitive, ignorant guy. I would hurt myself so much less...

today

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 16:56:00 GMT

Today has not been the best of days...
It started out with marching rehearsal running over on both ends...which is never a good sign. The day was somewhat uneventful in the morning but all of a sudden it just seemed like everyone was getting mad at me. Maybe I'm paranoid but I don't make things up very often...
That wasn't that bad cus by everyone I don't really mean EVERYONE, but then I asked if I could go give mari a ride home and my mom totally blew up on me about some things I didn't even know she was mad about and told me I had to come home, and then when I GOT home she blew up on me again...it was all around not a good afternoon...

I'm gonna go try and get ahold of mari...she usually makes me feel better...

Band...

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 22:48:00 GMT

Well today was the first day of band camp.
i must say texas is tooooo hot.
We marched out on a grass field, which was ok. Once it got really hot I started sweating really grossly...but that wasn't the worst part.
We went out to lunch, which was good...
Fuu and I were riding together, and then we had to go back for sectionals...
As usual we had mr. fischer, and as usual, we got the crappy room. It was airtight, non-airconditioned, and small. We crammed all of us in there and started breathing lots of hot air out through our horns and that room...you could have friend an egg on the wall...or my forehead.
Anyway, after that I took my car to get estimated for repairs. thank god...hopefully I'll have AC soon. And they may tune up the rest of the thing too...but we'll see. My mom might take me to get some better speakers too...since the ones I have in there are crapping out (10 years old) and a crappy volvo speaker replacement would be like 1 million dollars! lol...anyway...I'm tired.

I just need to say...

Tue, 27 Jul 2004 15:09:00 GMT

I love my mari soooo much!!!
Umm...yea, that's all.
She's the prettiest and funniest and cutest one and I love her with all my heart hehehe.
Mari! MUAH! hehehe

Carmel

Tue, 27 Jul 2004 14:28:00 GMT

Well I'm in carmel now.
I've been here for 3 days.
It's the last place I'm gonna be before I come home.
I actually go home tomorrow...amazing.
Carmel is nice in the aspect that I don't have to run around doing stuff with my dad for him to not freak out.
In all the other towns he gets really grumpy if we're not doing something EVERY MINUTE, but here, I can just sit around and do stuff that I wanna do.
I can finally sleep in now...though my dad bumps my bed and slams the door EVERY morning at 6 00 am, which sucks...
All in all, right now, the only thing that is making me really want to go home is my own room and my own bed, which really isn't all that much. I'm going to enjoy being back in my own house, but I don't really like spending much time at home these days anyway. I won't be able to do what I REALLY want to do for another 16 days, not including today. I'm just counting down till m'dear lady comes back and I can be her kid again. I'll probably just sit around and be on the computer and talk to her on the phone until she gets back.

Well, I'm gonna try and kill some time until I can go back to my room and work on my korean until I can call mari. Hope you guys are all having fun.

Mari! I think you're the only one who reads this anymore heheh. I really really miss you! I couldn't help myself yesterday, I just had to call you back. I know your parents are glad to have you with them but I want you back!!! I'm so selfish lol. Well I love you bunchies! I hope you wake up soon hehehe i'm gonna call you in the morning, but I hope I don't interrupt your csi lol. And...I love you more!
Muah!

Still in SF

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 23:15:00 GMT

Well I'm still in SF right now.
We leave in the morning.
We're gonna drive down to carmel (just south of monterey bay) for 4 more days and then I'm comin home. I would be really excited, but you guys all know that there's something missing from austin right now for me. I'm REALLY excited about the 12th and 13th, for somewhat obvious reasons. I don't really think I'm gonna do anything in austin until then, other than marching and sitting on the computer a lot.

For anyone who's never been, San Fransisco is a very fun town.
There are so many interesting people, it might get overwhelming if you're really shy, but an hour or two on the streets will have you completely acclimated. One thing I must say, keep your hand on your money. In this town anything can happen in a heartbeat, and you don't want it to happen to you!
Another thing. Have strong legs, or you'll struggle up the hills and eventually end up with strong legs anyway.

Anyway, as usual, I'm missing my lady.
She cut her hair!! whod've guessed!?
Lol she told me that she wanted to but she never told me she did! I saw the picture and I was like "your hair's different!" I think she was trying to be tricky but then...forgot about being tricky lol.
She's a really clever girl, so knowing her, she wanted to be tricky, and then forgot to be tricky ON PURPOSE, just to be even more tricky.

well she just called me folks, gotta go!
I love you mari!

San Fransisco (again)

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 11:38:00 GMT

Well folks, I made it back to San Fransisco.
We went up into canada and back, eh?
I saw a shirt in canada that said "Fukeneh" on the front and wanted to buy it, But I have...something else to save my money for.

I got tot alk to mari a lot yesterday, but I couldn't find her when I tried to call her back =( It turned out she was at her mom's store the entire time! *sniff* Hunter felt kind of stupid.
We drove pretty much all day yesterday, which sucked, cus that's what we did the day before, too. My butt hurt really bad.

I got a course to work on korean and it's SOOO good!
Though, I'm learning the really formal stuff right now, I'm learning pretty fast!
I have 18 hours of tapes to listen to and A big book to work on. I'm already on tape two, unit two! It's pretty hard, but I'm getting it pretty fast. Got a year till I gotta test myself =D

I miss my lady sooo bad...
If you guys are tired of hearing that...too bad!
I miss her way too much!
I got really lonely a couple of days ago and it made me sad.
But talking to her helps. I get to talk to her every day and email every day too, so...it's better.
I really can't wait until she gets back. I'm cooking up a surprise for her. SHHH don't tell her! it's a SURPRISE!!!
well...I gotta go out on the town now. Have a good time everybody.

Mari! I love you sooooo much more lady!
MUAH MUAH MUAH!!!
It was a good dream...a really good one.

Seattle

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 21:09:00 GMT

Well...today has been a loooong day.
To begin, my dad came in at like 8 00 and told me I had to get up.
To begin with, my dad has an interesting tactic of trying to make you think hard very early in the morning, which, on me, has the effect of making me want to crawl under the bed. After I finally did get up, shower, shave (like 2 weeks!!), get dressed, all that stuff, we went to the Boeing Museum of Flight. It was pretty cool. There were airplanes all over the place. SR-71, F-14, F-14, F-4, A-4, the Gee Bee was there! went on the original Air Force One, Went in a Concorde, lots of cool stuff. My sister and I went on a flight simulator, too. It was four minutes, and we each got to pilot half. Kate went crazy!!! I was cracking up the whole time and she was screaming...even though she was the pilot!!
After that, we went out to lunch, and went to the Experience Music Project, which was basically a Museum dedicated to music. That was pretty cool too, but nothing too exciting.
Oh yea, we also went to an imax about Mt. St. Helens. I almost forgot about that...i tried to block it from my memory. It almost made me release my lunch into the hair of the person in front of me....naturally that would have been bad.
After we got back to the hotel, I laid around a bit and trid to get my stomach to like me again. Tried to call Mari, but she wasn't home. I was about to leave to come here for the library, when, all of a sudden, mari called me! It was really great. I got to talk to her for about 30 minutes, which was really cool, cus she's really far away. She told me about something that I'm not going to tell you guys about, but it was HILARIOUS!!! *wink wink to mari* She had to try really hard folks. She's working at her mom's store and I was trying to help her not be bored. I really like talking to that girl. She makes me really happy and makes me laugh SO hard!!! I'm a really lucky guy...she's a great girl and I can hardly believe that I got her. Well, I'm gonna get out of this mod scary library. It's terrifying and the elevators go up to like mach 3 every time you change floors!!!

I hope mom's store isn't too boring mari! I'm gonna be thinking about you the whole time lady. Call me any time you like. I love you a ton!!! Muahmuahmuahmuahmuah!!!
and...you know.....
..
I love you more!!!

oregon

Sun, 11 Jul 2004 21:25:00 GMT

Well...I'm up here in Oregon. I miss texas y'all...
Flew in to San Jose, visited Stanford on the way to san francisco (really pretty campus) and stayed in san fran for 3 days...
San francisco is a really cool town, but it seems like gay guys outnumber straight guys, and getting eyed by guys has never been fun for me.
Visited Berkelely too, nice campus.
Then started driving north...which...is interesting.
Stayed in gold beach...nothing there. found some pretty rocks for mari.
Stayed in Lincoln City...only a casino there...smelled like sunscreeny indians...
Now I'm in Cannon Beach. It's pretty nice, really big, nice beach, but I still want my TEXAS back.
Anyway...I'm up in the northwest until the 28th...see yall later. Email is acumenessence@gmail.com now, if anyone cares.

Mari! I hope you're having fun in Korea!
I miss you toooooooo much. I've been holding my phone in my hand for hours just so I can be absolutely sure to get your call. I hope you're sleeping alright...I know jetlag sucks. I love you a huge huge huge ton mari! (way way way more!) I hope I'll talk to you soon!

Summertime

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 08:31:00 GMT

Well, it's July 2nd.
I've had a REALLY good summer so far.
Spent every day (other than monday or thursday) with mari
We have sooo much fun!
Yesterday, after mari did her credit by exam test we had a little bitty party'
Me and Jon moved the BIG HUGE HEAVY table into the backyard
lol...Robin asked me to bring 6 of my strongest friends...
After we moved it, Jose and Rachel came over, and then Chloe and Ashley did too. We had a crazy time.
Day before yesterday, Mari & Hunter went bowling with kateandjack and ashash. Jack used his flophawk powers to try and beat everyone but it wasn't quite succesful. Kate used her superior gutterball skillz to dupe us into thinking she would suck it up the whole way and then she got 2 strikes. Ashuhley used a very interesting technique that seemed to work very well for her...must be all that crack.
then, after that, kateandjack left and the rest of us went to eat and then we went to SP2! Dr. OCTATAVIUS was a pretty sweet bad guy. I kind of want more arms...just I wouldn't go around throwing stuff just cus I was angry about some science project. I'd just show off :-P
Anyway, today, I get to leave for my trip with mari and her family!
We're going to the beach and it should be a whole lot of fun.
I'm gonna dunk garson so bad...just you guys wait, when he comes back he'll look like a drowned rat.
I love my mari so much...I can hardly believe I'm getting to take two trips with her this summer! The first one, though we went to the middle of nowhere, was still pretty fun, But this second one promises to be a bit more fun.
Well I've gotta go back and then I gotta go over to mari's house! Have a good one guys, and I'll talk to you all later!

Oh yea, I got a new email address --> Acumenessence@gmail.com

13th!

Thu, 13 May 2004 06:30:00 GMT

Yay! It's the 13th again! 8 months with Mari.
Also, 243 days.
Wow...this year has whizzed by
I can't believe I'll be a senior in about 2 weeks.
I just hope that things keep getting better like they have.
Mari! 8 months! Yay! Two Thirds of a year lady! Heheh I want you to know mari that I am completely in love with you.
Yay for 13th!
-Hunter

Prom!!

Sat, 01 May 2004 18:26:00 GMT

Well, I must say that up until recently I never would have dreamed of having a prom experience like I did.
Got dressed up in my weird tux, thought I looked alright...
Went over to pick up mari, and shoot millions of pictures.
Drove the super duper decorated car over to paggi house and had a good dinner.
Chicken for Mari and Duck for Hunter...Both were good! Had crabcakes before that and cheesecake after...yumm
Then got back in the car, and went back to Hunter's house for millions more pictures lol.
Then we finally went to prom...parked way up on the fifth floor and then walked down...almost went to cedar park prom at first lol
Finally found westlake prom, saw a bunch of peoples on the way in, Got mari to dance with me (yay!) a slow song first, but then finally got her to dance a fast song...which made her crack up...lol she laughed big times at me.
Danced a lot with mari, got pretty tired and stuffs. Did the chicken dance and stuff too!
Left prom and went to Albertson's, which was closed :-( and then went to HEB which, also, was closed :-( and then went to my house and watched The Cheats! Funny movie...Something...Fish.
fell asleep on the couch, which was nice. I must say there's little better than falling asleep with your arm around someone you completely adore. Anyway, I had a really great time...it's amazing! I'll never forget it.
Thanks for a great time mari, I love you a ton!

Oh My God

Mon, 26 Apr 2004 18:12:00 GMT

I can't believe it's almost here
I almost thought it would never happen to me
I nearly believed I would forever be lost
But it's coming
And I can hardly believe it

I can't wait for prom!!

yay!

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 20:11:00 GMT

Well...there is a happy day coming up
though most of my days are happy these days...
wednesday is the 200 day mark...that's quite a while!
I remember when I was talking to mari about 100 days and she was explaining its meaning in korea and everything, and I remember her saying "I hope we do..."
And here we are, at 200!
I hope you all know, i'm the luckiest guy ever.
just to make it clear.
Love you mari!